If life was a hallmark movie!

I will admit I am a Hallmark movie junkie. I love watching those movies they are always mushy and have a happy ending. Then I usually say, too bad life wasn’t more like a hallmark movie.

I know that is completely unrealistic but it is such a nice dream. Because if my life was like a hallmark movie I wouldn’t be a widow and my life wouldn’t feel at times it was totally out of control. Oh, wait it is out of control because the only thing I have control over is how I react and handle what life throws at me. I can choose to let it break me or make me stronger. Well, I have to say that sometimes it seems easier to let it break me. Even if I know that is not what is best and if I truly believe that God is in control then I don’t have to worry about how things will turn out. Just continue to trust him, right?

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See in my movie Tom and I would live in our beautiful home, hang out in our pool, and in the evening after dinner he’d put some music on and we’d find ourselves dancing around the living room. Oh, if life was a Hallmark movie, everything would be filled with sunshine and laughter. LOL! Ok, by now you’re all thinking I have completely lost my mind, or maybe wondering what I’ve been drinking. I assure you I have not been drinking only going to my happy place that is like a Hallmark movie. Because in that place I can feel all warm and fuzzy and right now that is what I really need. Let me ask you where is your happy place? Do you have a happy place? What gives you the chance to forget all your troubles, worries and maybe even dance around your house? If you think dancing around your house is nutty then try something else. I should say here that I must be nutty cause I have done that. As I shared in my last post how the darkness can become inviting. Going into a Hallmark movie may be a way to overcome those dark feelings.

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How would you write your movie? Would you play yourself or would you have your favorite actor play you? Seem a bit out there, well that’s the point I am trying to get my mind to focus on happier thoughts. Yes, I know it’s all fantasy but that is the fun of it. When we were kids we did make-believe all the time. As I watch my grandson play with his legos I love how he creates this alternate world for his make-believe characters, the good guy always wins. Then I turn around and there’s my granddaughter playing house with her baby dolls. They always have something they need her to do. Even at 9 and 7 yrs old, they know its not real but they get so much joy out of the fantasy.

I think as we grow up we feel that having make-believe is childish, but what we don’t realize is that it could be good to have a few minutes of make-believe. Oh boy, can I hear the naysayers shouting back with “you can’t live in a fantasy.” Well dah, I know that I didn’t say live there I simply said maybe if we all had a bit more of Hallmark movie time we wouldn’t be so short sited and anxious. Maybe there wouldn’t be so much stress, anger, and so much judging of one another.

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Just maybe that moment of make-believe can be what you think heaven or the afterlife will be like. For me, it’s what I think it will be like when I get to heaven and see Jesus. I will be able to see all those I have lost over the years. We can have one huge family reunion, it will be quite a joyous occasion.

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So whatever your belief may be what could it hurt to make your Hallmark movie. Maybe, just maybe it can be a place where there is no sickness, anger, shame, disease, hate, death, or racism just for s few hours. Maybe if we all took the time to pause and say a little prayer we could make life more like a Hallmark movie. Darn, then I woke up and realized my movie came to an end and I am back in reality. Well, it was good while it lasted and I feel refreshed enough to tackle all the crazy stuff life will throw at me. I thank you, Lord, for giving me a chance to dream.

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This journey I have been on these past few years has been anything but uneventful. If my writing suggests otherwise then maybe I have done what the Lord needed me to do. I could be very negative and write very depressing thoughts because I do have those on many occasions. However, I believe that my walk with the Lord was meant to stay close to him and not allow the ugliness to rule my days. Those depressing thoughts will not serve any real purpose in me moving forward to healing my broken spirit. My joy can only come from believing and trusting that God has got this and he loves me always and forever no matter what I do or say. I am his masterpiece in progress and he is not finished with me yet.

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I feel like I need to add a disclosure here, one that says the above post was not intended to be hurtful or disrespectful to anyone’s religious beliefs or cultural belief. Remember this blog is simply a format where I can share how I am growing through this season of my life. My hope is and always has been that each post can in some way help someone find some inner peace while they travel through their season of life. God bless. (Your comments are always welcome).