I believe that this season of my life is teaching me how to find joy in the smallest things. It has been teaching me that my only calm in the storm is leaning into my faith. But it is also teaching me that just because I have days filled with happiness doesn’t mean I loved Tom less, or that I have forgotten him. It means that I am allowing the Lord to heal my brokenness.
God isn’t finished with me yet, just like an artist forms his artwork into a masterpiece, so is my God forming me into his masterpiece. We are all his masterpieces we only need to listen, watch, wait and believe then draw close to him through his son Jesus Christ.
It does seem on the outside looking in I have managed to accomplish much, but what one can’t see is the turmoil going on inside that questions every decision, move, and choice I make. I hear that voice that asks are you sure this is what you are supposed to be doing? How do you know for sure it is the right decision? But I still move forward, one step at a time and one day at a time, some days it’s one hour at a time and that’s ok. God didn’t intend for me to heal without going through rough patches because it is in those rough times I lean on his mercy to hold me and give me hope.
I am learning that my strength comes from the Lord and without his grace and mercy, I would not be able to make this journey. Every day is a new opportunity for me to follow his plan for my life, some days it’s easier than others. It’s always interesting to see what comes my way when I give the day back to him, makes it simpler to see the little miracles all around me. Because today is the day the Lord has made I will rejoice and be glad in it.
I am learning to make peace with all the changes that have occurred in my life these past 3 years. It has not been an easy road to travel down but I am too stubborn to quit. Deep in my heart, I believe that blessings flow from above and the more I pray and believe the better I can become.
So dream big and shoot for the stars because our God is bigger than you can imagine and his plan is better than anything I or you can think of. I am here because he isn’t finished with me yet and I pray for the confidence to step up and step out when he calls.
I have been reading your blog since began, and I never had the courage to comment But this time was different and after the loss of my spouse I can’t begin to tell you how much reading your blog these past 2 years has helped me deal with the anger, hurt, loss, grief and depression. I always wondered how you could have been so open with your feelings but I can’t tell you how much it has helped me deal with mine. I always felt like I had someone who understand how I felt. I can’t imagine how you managed to deal with the death and then move thousands of miles away in what seemed like an instant. Your courage is to commended. I can’t imagine the depth of your faith. Thank you so very much for helping me to deal with my grief.
We are all works in progress ! look at me , I will be 73 years old in March and the Lord is calling me to do things I had NO idea that I would ever be doing !
Life is a challenge , and the LORD gives us challenges to better our selves and makes us stronger ! So that we can please him .
Awesome posts about God’s faithfulness 🙏love what you wrote” God isn’t finished with me yet, just like an artist forms his artwork into a masterpiece, so is my God forming me into his masterpiece. “ I have thought of this so often for myself. God is good! So good to read your blog again I just thought yesterday I need to check and see if I missed a post. Love reading your encouraging posts!
Thank you for the beautiful encouraging comment. God is so very good.