The sun is rising and the clouds look amazing. Take a moment and enjoy the beauty the Lord has set before me.
A friend once told me to focus on the positives in my life. Look around and see the beauty the Lord has set before me. Remember to say thank you for the blessings I am given each day. While that is great advice, it isn’t always that easy when you are dealing with grief. Anyone who is in the throes of grieving will gladly tell you it is easier to be sad than it is to rejoice in the beauty that surrounds you. Because it is so often hard to see through the veil of grief.
How then does one lift that veil so you can see the good, especially when it seems like there is so much ugliness all around you?
As I have been walking, or sometimes crawling through this season of grief I am learning that no matter what happens if I look to the Lord I can find joy, peace, and hope. My anxiety comes when I take my eyes off Jesus and forget where my help comes from.
I lift my eyes to the mountains- where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.” The Lord will watch over your comming and going both now and forevermore.” (Psalm 121: 1-2; 8)
I still have moments where I feel like this is all a bad dream, that I will wake up and be in my home in Arizona with Tom beside me. However, there is always something that snaps me back to reality. With all that is going on in our world today, it makes it harder to not have him here. He was my sounding board, he knew what to say to keep my focus on the good things in life. Although sometimes I didn’t like hearing it, I knew it needed to be said. Now I am learning to lean heavily on the Father and Holy Spirit to keep me grounded.
“I call on the Lord in my distress, and he answers me.” (Psalm 120:1)
So for today, I am going to say thank you, Lord, thank you for my home, my family, my car, the food I eat the people I get to meet. Thank you for giving me another day to be alive and to share your love with others. Thank you for the means to simply live a comfortable life. Thank you for always being there to comfort me, protect me, guide me, and love me unconditionally. Because I do believe that he is here always even if I can’t see or feel it. His promise is that he will watch over me day and night. I am truly grateful for his presence in my life.
My life is in his hands and I shall be forever grateful that his love for me is never-ending no matter how many times I mess up. I am not perfect but I trust that I am becoming all that he wants me to be. I am his masterpiece in progress. So on those days when I feel so alone and want to crawl in a hole and hide it is a blessing that he shows up to remind me I am his, I am loved and I am who I am because I choose to seek him first, and today is one of those days.
My prayer today:
Jesus, give me the grace to be mindful of how much you love me, that in trying times I will always have your protection. Give me a heart that is humble and obedient to your will so I can love others the way you do. Give me your eyes, that I might see the beauty all around me even when chaos runs rampant. I truly do want to live a life that is honoring you in all I do, say, and write. I love you Abba for you are my God. Send your Spirit out to all who seek it, and touch the hearts of those in need. I cast all my cares on you Lord, and I thank you for giving me this day. Amen
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May God bless you and give you his peace.
Yes, you are so right, naming the pain ( versing stuffing it 😭 ) aids in the healing process… I am SO WITH YOU on without the Lord, I cannot even imagine traversing this journey without Him … 🙏🌈💜
Great one! Such a great reminder to keep our mindset on be grateful even in difficult times. I read a quote that came to mind as I was reading your blog. “ your mind is a garden your thought are the seeds you can grow flowers or weeds.” When you stay in a grateful mindset you grow flowers. Life is not easy but like you said the Holy Spirit is with us.