Leap and the net will appear, are you kidding me? What does that mean I’m not one to just step out and hope there is a step. However when I reflect on these last 16 months maybe I have been doing that very thing. I find myself many days following a sort of blind faith with the hope the decisions I have made are guided by the spirit. Only to find out sometimes I made the wrong choice. Then I need to stop and reassess what to do next.
In those moments when I feel so alone and abandoned, I need to lean on the Lord. If I truly believe that God is there for me in all ways no matter how big, how small or how deep the pain, that is my leap. As the nights sometimes seem endless and the emptiness feels as deep as the ocean is wide I have found myself crying out to God for comfort.
Seasons of Life
I now am forced to find a new life. After 42 years of marriage, I am alone. So I am starting to understand leap and the net will appear. I truly have no one to lean on but God. No one that I can call out to when I can’t stop crying or I hear things that go bump in the night. So I pray and that is my net. Each day I keep leaping as I gradually find my way around this new life. Learning that I am alone with nothing but my faith to give me comfort.
Wondering if this is the lesson I am to learn? To allow my faith to grow stronger so I am ready to face bigger giants. Because this is a season and like all seasons it will end and a new one will begin. Each new season allows healing and new doors of opportunity.
Hope returns when I remember this one thing: because the Lord’s unfailing love we do not perish for his mercies never end. They are new every morning. (Lamentations 3:21-23)
God is my net
So while I make my way through this journey of grief and the mountain of feelings that come over me in waves; I vow to keep my faith. I will continue to leap trusting that the net will always be there because that net is God. He has proven to me many times that he’s got this. After all, he did overcome death, and through Christ all things are possible. So as each new day dawns I have a choice to be thankful or be filled with despair. When I choose to be thankful, that is my leap. It is my belief that Christ will continue to catch me.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not rely on your own understanding. Think about Him in all your ways, and He will guide you on the right paths.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Such a great post. This has been so inspiring. Thank you
Wow great post! Two things stuck out me one about your leap of faith is trusting God that He will catch you when you step out. Second thing that stuck out is thankfulness we are also finding that to be key in this season of quarantine staying thankful in time of loss is important point you brought up. Great blog so good to share this journey with you.
It warms my heart that you are on this journey with me. I believe God has placed each person in my life for a reason and a season. Thank you for being there.