Leap and the net will appear

I don’t remember where I first heard that phrase, Leap and the net will appear. But I think it means have faith and trust God will show up. As I look over my life I can see where putting trust and having faith definitely made a difference. I remember the decision to move from Pennsylvania to Arizona. It was a decision Tom and I did not take lightly and we counted on the Lord to help us make the move. That long trip hauling a small trailer packed with our belongings, 3 small children and 1 large dog but we made the journey with out any major mishaps. There were many times we could see God’s hand upon us. Missing accidents by mere minutes, having a tornado hit the city the day after we left. So many other things that we could look back on and see the protection of our guardian angels. So it is should be no surprise to me that as I continue to leap in faith that God is there waiting to catch me.

“Jesus speaks about being saved- don’t dwell on what you have lost, or given up; think about what you have gained and give thanks for it.” (Luke 18:18-30)

Starting over

When my life took a 365 degree turn in November 2018 getting through those weeks and months after was quite simply because I just said you’ve got this God. I can’t do it with out your strength. Catch me because I am taking a giant leap forward. At that time I had no idea what I was walking in to. I only knew what I was leaving behind, a life of 40 plus years. It was over, that door was closed and I had to walk through a new one. Everything from that day forward would be like finding my way through a dark room. Each step I have taken these past 2 years has been on a path I never imagined I’d be making alone. Simple things I took for granted when Tom was alive. Up keep on our car, fixing a bicycle flat, taking care of me when I didn’t feel well and so much more. All that I have to now do on my own.

Promise to self

Oh, but if I could have the dreams I dream about, what would my life look like? There is only one thing I am sure of and that is I would not be a widow. I would have Tom back here with me. But since that is not possible I am choosing life. I am making a promise to myself which is to allow the dreams I once had to take root again. It is important that I remind myself that Tom’s love and desire for me was to be happy. Even though he is not here his memory will always be with me, his spirit lives on in my heart. So to live the life we dreamed of living. So I am leaping trusting the net will be there.

His plan not mine

I am alive, and just like everyone else, I am on borrowed time. If I have learned anything with Tom’s sudden death it is that very fact. We do not know how much time we are here on this earth. So making the most of each day is important. Finding ways to fulfill God’s plan for my life. Listening for his guidance in all that I do, and say. There are still many days when I feel so sad, alone, would like to crawl into a corner and cry. Somehow I find the courage and strength to take one more step forward. Maybe because I know that dwelling on the losses in my life will not bring Tom back or change anything else. There is so much to be thankful for and that is what I want to focus on. I do believe his plan for my life is to bring goodness, love, laughter and blessings. I understand that the trials I journey through are there to draw me closer to God.

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” (James 1:2-4)

Beyond the storms

On the days I lift my eyes up to the heavens I find peace. It’s a peace no one can understand unless they invite the Holy Spirit to come. Psalm 121 tells me to lift my eyes to the Maker of heaven and earth. My help comes from the Lord, he will not let my foot slop – he watches over me and will not let me slumber or sleep. The Lord watches over me, always he is my shade, my comforter and no harm will come may way. That doesn’t mean I will not experience sadness or trials because we live in a sinful world and things happen. We each in control of our behavior, attitude and actions. There are always consequences to our actions good or bad. But our God is a forgiving God and I know that there will be blessings out of the storms.

My prayer

Father, I thank you that You’re the Creator and Keeper – the One who made the heavens and the earth and watches over me day and night. Help me to continue to keep my eyes focused on you, may I continue to trust in you and believing you only have goodness and blessings planned for my life. May I always look up even when the storms in life seem to be so wild and unmanageable. As I continue to walk forward I trust that through Your Spirit each step will be guided by you. Thank you for the many blessings in my life. Amen..

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