“There is a season for everything, and a time for every activity under heaven” (Ecc.3:1
I find that relying on God’s strength through his word gives me encouragement to know this season of my life will pass. As time passes and I get stronger I sometimes wonder if that means that my affection and love for my husband have diminished? This is all uncharted waters I am in and even though I have lost many loved ones in my lifetime this is so different. This is the love of my life, my best friend, my compass that would remind me when I would get down that God was always there holding me close.
As I travel through this season of my life I find the need to remind myself that as God heals my hurting heart and as my grief will eventually lesson it does not mean that my love for Tom has diminished, nor has his impact on my life. I will carry the love for him in my heart and mind forever. My belief is it will allow me to accept the abundant life God has for me and that is what Tom would want. He was always so giving and thoughtful always putting the needs of others before his own. So it is with confidence I know his desire for me would be to keep moving forward and build a new life. So It is in this season of my life I am learning that God is growing my faith and providing me the courage to keep moving forward. ” Don’t live in guilt. Live in God’s grace. Don’t walk with regret. Walk with your resurrected redeemer. Don’t lean on your own understanding. Lean on Jesus, who understands your need for salvation. “(Rev Tim Wesemann- Grieving with Hope)
I am never sure what each day will bring or the decisions I will have to make but I am sure that whatever comes I will survive. I have been told in the past I am a survivor which I believe comes from trusting God to be there always. It has been more than 45 years that I gave my life to Jesus and promised to follow him through the good and the bad and there have been many bad times in my life, along with the very good. Everyone experiences storms in life because if we constantly lived on the mountain top we could never appreciate the blessings. It is in the storms/valleys of life that we learn, grow and that make the mountain tops so much more enjoyable. This has been my experience throughout my life. I’ll admit that sometimes I don’t always see the blessing and will ask God why is this happening but then I am reminded that I must also ask why not? How often do I ask that same why? when my life is going so well.
If I can remember to say thank you even in the stormy season of my life, that does not mean I say thank you for the heartache or the pain it means that I am thankful for his strength that is carrying me through this season. Knowing that it will not last forever, no season does.
I found this prayer in a book a friend gave me, it provides comfort. “Dear Lord, I need to remember your words that tell me that you will give me the strength to make it through this day. Some days I need so much more, I realize that you are my strength and I have none of my own. Nothing is too much for you. Lead me through this season of intense pain, anger, and heartache. I sometimes can’t see beyond the fog now, but I’ll trust you. You know what each tomorrow holds, and you want the best for me. Lead me, I will follow. Amen” (Rev. Tim Weseman- Grieving with Hope)
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