“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.” (Psalm 91:1)
One of my daily bread readings reminded me of how important it is to lean into the Lord. We all know that in our lives today when tragedy strikes we simply dial 911 and help is on the way. But we often forget that we need to dial into the Lord. His peace is only a prayer request away. I share that because as I have traveled through this season of grief I have forgotten at times to look up and dial into the Lord. Even though throughout my life he has proven over and over again that he’s got this and if I simply continue to trust him things will get better. It means to have a little faith.
Faith- “is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see.” (Hebrews 11:1)
Little faith…
Ok, so maybe dialing 91:1 isn’t for you. But if I stop to think about daily events and all that happens in one’s life I am not sure how I could make it through a day without first taking hold of that phrase. I only know that I could not have made the decisions, moved forward, or handle all the ups and downs of these past 2 years without having a little faith. I realize that some people who read this may not believe in Jesus the way I do, that’s ok. He still loves you and will always be there even if you don’t recognize it.
Jesus said, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” (Matthew 17:20)
Not strong enough…
I have learned that I am not strong enough to handle the bumps that life throws at me every day. It is with the grace the Lord supplies that gives me the ability to take each step. Grief at times can be overwhelming and the craziest little thing can cause the tears to flow. But I believe tears are God’s way of healing a broken heart. From the outside, it may look like I am doing great, and most days and weeks I am. It’s on those other days that I must dial into 91:1 and hold on tight.
It’s going to be ok….
Through all this, I look for things that will give me a sense of belonging, a way to feel like myself. Even though at times I am not sure what that is to look like. I know and trust that I am a child of God and that is all that matters when it comes down to the end. I am grateful that music can bring a sense of peace, calm, and comfort when I need it most. So many songs have touched my soul and aided in the healing process. Even though I still have setbacks I know that I am doing better than I was 2 years ago. As I give myself permission to heal and move forward knowing that does not mean I have forgotten Tom or that I don’t still love him. I believe that he would want me to find happiness, peace and live out the dreams we once talked about. I still miss him so much every day but I am learning to let go and let God.
My prayer for You…
My prayer is for those who are suffering the loss of someone they love, or job loss, move or any other thing that can be a source of grief. That you may find comfort and peace in Jesus, trust that he is there with you, and know that we are children of God his grace is what helps us to be closer to him. We don’t have to earn his love, forgiveness, or acceptance that came when Jesus died on the cross. When I reflect on that it humbles me to the very core of my spirit. That is how I manage to keep putting one foot in front of the other one step at a time. I trust that God’s got this. Amen
As I close out this weeks post I am thankful that I have many who have chosen to follow my blog. My wish and prayer is that it continues to be what the Lord inspires me to write and only comes from the heart. So thank you to all my followers. I hope you will continue to follow and feel led to share this with others. One never knows who is working through grief and they may not even realize it. God Bless and know that you are loved.
I love this post and will read it over and over again. It touches upon all my feelings right now, and gives me so much hope as I continue to pray, and trust in His perfect plan for me now that my husband has gone to be with Him. Thank you for lifting me up.
This is sooo good when I read this “I know and trust that I am a child of God and that is all that matters when it comes down to the end. I am grateful that music can bring a sense of peace, calm, and comfort. “
Great reminders all through this blog
Hi, My name is Connie. I am new to your blog and I can’t believe how each post I have read so far has hit a raw emotion to some extent. I am so sorry for you loss and will pray for you to continue to heal. I hope you keep writing and know that your posts touch many of us in ways we never thought possible. Even though it has been 5 years since my spouse was killed in an auto accident there are many times when I still fight back tears. But it has been easier to go through each day. I am very happy to have stumbled on to your blog. Thank you. May God continue to bless you and inspire you.